Nipu

Yeah, yeah. It's been almost a week since I said I would make a post. I'm sorry. I'm just a busy person. Well, not really. But I just never have anything to say. Life is more or less the same as it always is.

So yeah. I'm up early I guess you could say. It's almost 7 in the morning at the time of typing this sentence. Just couldn't really sleep last night. I was tossing and turning. All in all I've probably had less than 2 hours of sleep. Yet I'm not really tired. * shrugs * Whatever.

I have to take my father to the doctor today. Whoo boy. Since mother got a new job, I've pretty much become the house servant. I cannot wait to get the fuck out of this house. I'm so sick of everybody. When I move out, I'm staying out. I don't care if I'm living out of my car, I'm not coming back. Yeah, I'm burning that bridge. I'm tired of doing everything for them. I can't wait to see how they do when I'm gone. Yeah, I'm an asshole.

Oh wait...hold on...I love this song.....* headbangs * The Black Mages rock my socks off. \m/

Since I'm up early, I think I'll actually make me and eat some breakfast. Can't remember the last time I cooked some breakfast. YOM

Hmm...what else. Oh yeah....


MOTHER FUCKING DISTURBED IS COMING BACK TO NASHVILLE!!!!!! FUCK YES!!!!!

I so cannot wait to see them again. Their last show was awesome, and I can't wait to hear some songs from their new album " Indestructible" live. It's going to be so awesome. And I'm going with my Piki. Last time it was with whiny ass Angela who got kicked in the head. HAHA! Aw well. I won't be getting floor " seats " this time. It sucked standing for so long. I'll get us some actual seats.

Speaking of Piki, her and I are doing GREAT. I've never loved another as much as I love her. We'll have been together for 11 months next Friday. Whoo! Almost a year. And it's been the best year of my life. I love you Tiffany!

Well that's about it. I'm done. Out. Maybe I'll update again in a few months, a few weeks, or a few days. Who knows? Later.

Just posting this for fun, and so Tiff can fill it out. I'll post a real entry either tonight or tomorrow.


01) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
02) What was your dream growing up?
03) What talent do you wish you had?
04) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
05) Favourite vegetable?
06) What was the last book you read?
07) What zodiac sign are you?
08) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.
09) Worst Habit?
10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
11) What is your favourite sport?
12) Do you have a Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude?
13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
16) Do you have any pets?
17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?
18) What was your first impression of me?
19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
22) What colour eyes do you have?
23) Ever been arrested?
24) Bottle or can soda?
25) If you won £5,000 today, what would you do with it?
26) What's your favourite place to hang out at?
27) Do you believe in ghosts?
28) Favourite thing to do in your spare time?
29) Do you swear a lot?
30) Biggest pet peeve?
31) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
32) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
33) Favourite and least favourite food?
34) Do you believe in God?
35) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?

So Piki says I need to update my journal. Well, this isn't officially it, but more to say that I will update before the weekend. So yeah. This will have to to for now.

Hopefully only one person knows where those lyrics came from....>.>

Anyways! Hi. How are you? I'm well. Just sitting here, it being almost 2:30 in the morning, playing Final Fantasy III on the DS, ( great game but HARD as hell! ( Dragoons ftwwah! ) ), thinking I should probably go to bed. Naaaaaaah.

Why am I up this late? No job. Laid off. About a month earlier than usual. But I'm not too worried about it like I was in my last post. My bills are under control, and I'm not spending money where I shouldn't be. So yeah. Whatever. I've been about half assed looking for another job. I'm sure I'll end up just getting a new job in Nashville or something. By the looks of it, that's probably where I'll end up moving, to be with Tiff.

Yup! We're still together. 7 months now, and they have still been the greatest ever. We've never had a fight. A few disagreements but nothing that couldn't be handled like adults. She's so amazing. I love her dearly, and more than anything.

Hmm...no real reason I guess behind this post. Just boredom, mainly. I'm going to get my party on the game to level 30, try to fight this fucking boss that keeps kicking my ass again, then go to bed. My Black Mage is DED...again....Arc you suck! Ahem! Yeah, I'm done. Later folks!

I LOVE YOU PIKI!!!!

So yeah, a real full on post. I've got a lot of shit in my head, and it's time to get it all out.

First off, I fucking hate my god damned job. There's a chance I'll be laid off next week. A full month sooner than usual. It fucking sucks. Just ruins everything pretty much. It means I'll have to start drawing my unemployment sooner, using it up faster. When it runs out, I can't reapply till like September. I don't recall how much I have left, but I may have to go a few weeks with no income whatsoever. Secondly, I won't be able to pay off my last bill and save any money to move in with Tiffany this summer like I had wanted to. Now there's no telling when we'll be able to move in together. I really need to find a new job, but there isn't shit in Clarksville that pays as much as I make now. Everything in Nashville you have to fucking have a degree to do something. So I'm pretty much stuck. All because I have no education. I'm just meant to be a god damned grunt in a factory I guess. And I'll have to start off making shit for an hourly wage again and probably spend another 6 years working my way up to what I make now. So I'm fucked any direction I look.

I need to stop expecting so much out of life, I guess. Every time I get to a point where I'm extremely happy, I get shit on. Every time I expect something or look forward to something, something comes along and ruins it. Like this coming weekend for example. I was expecting Tiffany to not game with that group of fagots because they are going to some concert. Nope. They're still doing it. So back to my waiting half the weekend to get to see her for a day. I grow so tired of it. Waiting. That's all I ever fucking do. I feel like I get put on the back burner so much. I have to always wait. I'm tired of it. But there's nothing that can be done about it. I just need to quit my whining and wait. I hate it. It's hard, and hurts to much to have to wait so long to get to see the one person that I love so much. Then to only get to see them for a day, only to go back to waiting again. * sigh * And now I have to wait even longer because of fucking work before we can live together. GAAAAAH! I just want to fucking punch something. Or someone. That would make me feel better. And I'm sure listening to Dethklok right now isn't helping that.

But I digress. All I want is to be able to spend more time with her. Is that so much to ask for?

It's been 6 months now since Tiffany and I started dating. And despite only getting to see her for a while on the weekends, it's been a great 6 months. All my problems and anger go away when I'm with her. She makes me completely and utterly happy. I just wish I could be with her more often. Maybe then I wouldn't be such an angry person. But for now I'll just take what I can get.

For our 6 month anniversary, we went to see Iron Man. Fucking awesome movie. Best Marvel Comics movie ever. Then later we went out to eat at Old Chicago. Tasty food. Good music. The rest of the weekend was spent pretty much doing nothing. Which is fine by me. But is was a nice full weekend. I wish they were all like that.

My hand hurts from typing so much, and I'm tired of bitching for now. So I'm going to end this for now. So yeah. Later.

~Me

So yeah, the rant I was suppose to do. I decided not to. Why? Well a few reasons, actually. One, it was discussed at length, and finally decided upon that the subject wouldn't be brought up again. And two, I was in a good mood when I came home that afternoon from work, and didn't want to bring myself down again by getting pissed. So yeah, there you have it.

I will say this, I DO NOT like being referred to as a prop.

That is all.

Nipu out.

Expect a rant/post later today. That is all.

Time for another lunch break update. Yippie

So yeah. I have determined that the worst feeling in the world is missing someone whom you love more than anything. It sucks, seriously.

I only got to see Tiffany one day last week. All because of an investigation that was probably the worst one we had ever been on. Man did it suck.

Seeing Piki for only one day was terrible. It was more of a tease than anything. I'd like to spend all weekend with her, but her gaming group is a bunch of fucking pricks and don't like me. All because I won her heart. And because of them, I'm limited to only seeing her Saturday night and Sunday. Sucks.

Thankfully Valentines is coming up. She's taking that Friday off of work and we'll be spending all that weekend together. I can't wait.

I miss her so much. I can't stand being away from her, no matter how long it is. I could be apart from her for ten minutes and still miss her. I can't wait till we live together. It'll be so great. Have to get those damn bills paid first.

I'm out.

So its 1 in the morning and here I sit on my "lunch" break at work, bored as usual. I put lunch in quotations because I never eat at work. It messes with my blood sugar. That, and I don't like bringing my shots to work. But anyways......

So why update again so soon after my last entry? Nothing has really happened since my last one. I just wanted to express just how happy I am at this point in my life. And I owe all this happiness to my amazingly wonderful girlfriend Tiffany.


I had thought I was in love before. But after being with her I finally know what true love is. Everything is so much different with her. My feelings towards her are unlike any I've ever felt before. What we have....what we feel is true love. We were meant for each other in every way possible.

All the others started off well but after a few months I could always tell it wouldn't last. With mine and Tiff's 3 month anniversary quickly approaching, I have no doubt whatsoever that we are destined to last. Not once have I had any thoughts of us not being together forever. She is my everything, my reason for being, my one true love. She makes me everyday strive to be the best that I can.

She's wonderful, understanding, easy to talk to, we share so much in common and she is the most beautiful woman I have ever laid eyes upon.

As my break draws to an end I will close by saying this: I love you Tiffany. With all my heart and soul. Words could never truly express my feelings for you. And I look foward to spending the rest of my life with you. . .


" So many ways to say, "I love you",
never enough to say how much. "

It's been well over a month since my last update. So here I sit, on a Monday night with nothing better to do. I have to stay up most the night anyways so I can sleep tomorrow for work. I'm getting too old for this night shift shit.

I'm going to try to get it all out in one post. Quite a bit has happened in a month's time. Christmas, New Year, and lots other stuff.

So yeah, I guess I'll start with Christmas. I don't remember all the fine details. I know my mother actually let Tiff stay the night Christmas Eve night. Christmas morning we woke, opened presents and all that. I was upset that the gift I ordered for Tiffany the first week of NO-FUCKING-VEMBER didn't arrive. Sucks balls. I told her what it was though, and she seemed to be excited about it. On a side note, here it is almost February and it's still not here. But I've been assured it's being worked on. For those not in the know, it's a custom made plushie of Spike from Cowboy Bebop. Her gift to me however.....quite possibly the best gift anyone has ever gotten me. She commissioned an artist to do a 3-D render of my Saturn Ion into a Transformer, then had it printed into a full size poster. AWESOME! That is the most thought anyone has ever put into a gift. Much, much better than any other bitch I've ever dated has got for me. It's apparent now they just didn't care. Tiffany on the other hand.....she's so amazing. * sigh * I miss her so much right now.....

So Christmas we spent at her parents. They took us out for some nummy, nummy Chinese. I luff Chinese food....>.> Yes, I just used " luff ". Thanks Tiff. I think that's all for the Christmas holiday....it's been so long...I don't recall everything exactly.

December 30th, we got all dressed up very sexy like and went to see the Trans-Siberian Orchestra in Nashville. It was SO COOL! Man I loved it...just wish I didn't have a cold from hell kicking my ass. I would have enjoyed it more. But yeah, we are so making that a yearly thing for now on. And damn did we look sexy! Take a look for yourself!







New Year's was quiet. What did we do? She spent the night again. With my mother's approval. It's awesome, my Mom really likes her now that she's gotten to know her more, so she doesn't mind her staying anymore. All we did was stay up, playing Pokémon and watching t.v. At midnight, we watched the ball drop, and had our first kiss of the new year. It was awesome.

Have I mentioned how much I love her?

So after spoiling ourselves by seeing each other for like 4 days at a time, it was time to go back to the usual routine of work and seeing each other on the weekends. Which sucks. But we manage. The distance thing isn't fun at all, but it just makes the time we do spend together all that more precious.

Not last weekend, but the weekend before was fun. I helped Tiff move into her new apartment! It was fun driving her mom's big truck. Made me feel like even more of a mountain man. But yeah, we got her all moved in. Having all the privacy now is awesome. Had lots of sexings too, to break in her new room. >.>

Now last weekend was fun as well. To maximize our time together, I decided to go down to see her Friday night, rather than Saturday night. Though, going gaming with her wasn't all too much fun. Her friends are jackasses. They get me all into the story then fuck around for 4 hours.....I wanted to know what was going to happen next....turds. But I was with her, so that's all that really mattered. Gaming actually looks fun and interesting...I guess it just depends on the company.

Sunday she introduced me to her photographer friend, Oleg Volk. His work is very impressive. I also met a " student " of Oleg's, Chris. He was there getting some lessons from Oleg. Tiff and I did some modeling I guess you could say for Chris. Chris was quite good, for this being his first session. I think the pictures he took came out great.



Above: Chris directing Tiff and I. Photo by Oleg Volk.

And here are a few of Chris' shots:






Yeah, I really had fun Sunday. I hope to have some more pictures taken sometime with Tiff. We look so good together.

Then Monday morning came and we had to part ways again. This week is going to suck because I have an important investigation Saturday night. So I'm only going to get to see her on Sunday. She's going to come up here. Hopefully I'll be able to stay awake after being up all night on a case. I should be ok.

Speaking of CGH, we got some good stuff planned for this year. A new episode is in development, going through the editing stage. This one will be awesome. Then we've got some good cases, and I've been charged with the task of coming up with an ad to place on the back of one of Clarksville's city buses. Fun stuff. We'll also have a newsletter published this year. I can't wait to see the finished product of that, since I wrote an article for it.

Other than all of the above, not much else has been going on. Still working. When there's work. And when they're not being jackasses and promising promotions and raises, then taking it back for no reason. Yeah, not going to get into that.

I think my brain is dying, so I'm going to end this while I'm ahead, and my sentences are still coherent. I'm sure I left a lot out...it has been over a month since my last real update. I'll try to keep up more, so I don't leave anything out. So until next time....

~CGH Brandon

Update coming soon, I promise.

So its been 3 weeks since my last update and Tiff said I needed to so here goes. And I have nothing better to do on my lunch break at work so I figured what the hell. I do apologize in advance for any typos as I am doing this from my phone.

So yeah, what to go on about? Life is pretty grand. But a lot of the same old, same old. My time is mostly spent between work and being with Tiffany. Speaking of which, her and I have made it past the one month mark. I know, nothing special since my past relationships have lasted upwards of two years or more. But it is special to me for in the past month I've been the happiest I've been in years, if not ever. She really is a wonderful woman. In my eyes she is the perfect woman. I love her more than anything and truly believe her to be the one. The one I spend the rest of my days with. Love you Piki!

Christmas is just a few days away. Being broke around this time sucks. I wish bill collectors would let you have the month off. Because of my debts I haven't really been able to get much for anybody. My parents told me to not worry about them. And if I had the money I would still get them something but alas I don't. I feel so bad about not being able to get them anything but it can't be helped. I got Tiff her gifts and will pick up my brother's Friday. I JUST got J's birthday present last week even though his birthday was in October. His Christmas gift will have to wait. Man I suck.

So I'm thinking about making my journal more public. Not that it's hidden or anything, but I'm pretty sure only one person reads it. I'm talking about letting all my friends know that I've started writing in it again. Everyone that use to read stopped since I had quit posting to it. I think its time to let everyone back into my mind.

Well my lunch break has been over now for about 10 minutes, so its time to close this up. I'll write more as time permits. But until then........

Sorry it's taken so long to get back around to doing this. Sadly, Episode VI has been delayed due to the recent writer's strike. Yup. No writers, no Episode VI. But some key points were put on paper before the strike began. So I can give those out. Here we go!

• I'm back at work. This is my third week actually. Back on old " B " shift, 7 pm to 7 am, Tuesday through Thursday.

• Went to Indiana last week for Thanksgiving. It was pretty cool.

• Each weekend spent with Tiffany just gets better and better. I love her so much.

• Dethklok fucking rocks.

• 2GB micro SD cards fucking rock.

• Red Bulls are addicting.

• I'm a DAMN good cook.

• Looking foward to next month. A LOT.

• Did I mention I love Tiffany? Yeah? Oh. Well I'll say it again. I love Tiffany.

Well that's about it. Maybe when the strike is over, you'll get some full, detailed posts. Until then....

Nipu out!

As promised, part two of my three part post.  This one, unlike the last, is a happy one.  A VERY happy one. After the terrible weekend I had on the 3rd.....the following weekend, was quite possibly the greatest weekend ever.  Ladies and gentlemen...this is.....Episode V.....


As humans, we spend most of our lives trying to attain one major goal.  To just be happy in life.  Happiness can be many different things to different people.  For one person, happiness could be just having a great job, and having lots of money.  Others, it could just be living their life to the fullest, and doing everything they've ever dreamed to do.  And for others.....it's finding your true love.  That one person that makes you happiest when no other can.  I do believe I have found her.....

As you all know, for a while now, I've been talking a lot about Tiffany.  How different she is from other women, how sweet and kind she is.  How amazingly beautiful she is.....her dorkiness......  She's pretty much the perfect woman in my eyes.  The kind of woman I had been searching for.  The kind I would want to spend the rest of my mortal days on this Earth with.  And now.....now I have her.  Yes, that's right.  Tiffany and I are an official couple now.  And I couldn't be happier.

So this is how it went down.  Last weekend, we were suppose to go on a trip to Brandenburg, Kentucky for a ghost hunt at the Talbott Inn.  That fell through.  Well she had already set aside that whole weekend to be with me, so I said fuck it.  We're not wasting it.  I was determined to spend the entire weekend with her, and we did.

Friday night, she made the long and tiring trek up here after she got off of work.  Poor thing.  I felt bad after she did it.  Traffic was horrible, it was dark and she's only got one headlight, I know she had to of been tired from work.  But she came anyways.  That meant a lot to know she'd do all that just for me.  Anyways, I met her outside when she got here.  We hugged, and kissed and I just held her for a few minutes.  It felt good to see her and hold her again after the weekend I had before.  Well we finally went in and hung out for a bit, before going to Amanda's for a bit.  Did the same over there.  Just hung out.  Watched Andy play some Guitar Hero 3.  We then played Wii Bowling for a bit.  Finally, it was late, and I knew Tiff had to be tired, so we packed up and headed back to my joint.  We then changed into our PJ's and climbed into bed.  That's right.  She was staying the night.  Though, we didn't get much sleep......we made out most of the night.....

So morning came.  I think we eventually got a couple hours of sleep.  But when we woke up, we just picked up where we left off.  Making out again.  Mmmm.........good stuff.  We had plans to go to IHOP that morning, but just couldn't make it out of bed for whatever reasons.  I'll let you come up with your own reasons.  Finally, after a few hours, we got up, got dressed and headed out to the 'HOP.  Yeah, so did every other person in Clarksville.  Place was fucking packed!  Jesus H. Christ on a crucifix it was packed.  Had to take a number and wait outside.  Yes, outside.  In the cold.  So we sat on the curb and just made fun of ugly people.  I put my arm around her and pulled her in close to help keep her warm.   Mmm....snuggles.  We eventually found room inside to sit, and after a bit longer our number was called.  We then sat and partaked in yummy breakfast treats.  Very yummy.  I did my usual and smothered everything in strawberry syrup.  Soooo tasty.

After our nummynummy breakfast....er lunch.....or something.....we took a stroll around the mall to walk it off, then went back to the house.  We popped in good ol silly bitch Dane Cook and started watching him.  And started making out again.  What?  It's fun.  Shush.  But after Dane and the making out is when things got interesting.  I got a huge surprise.  I was looking into her eyes, when she asked " What are you thinking? "  and I replied honestly with " Your pupils are really big right now. "  Yeah I know, romantic......  But then I flipped that shit around on her, and asked the same.  That's when it came out.

Y'see, I had always told her, that when she was ready to date, to say so.  Everything thus far in our relationship has been up to her.  She's made all the first moves.  And she made the next move.  She told me she was ready.  I told her so was I.  And that was it.  Just like that we were now an official couple.  Happiest moment ever.  Awesome.

Earlier that day, in my mother's typical fashion, I got bitched at about Tiffany staying the night Friday night.  So we decided to pack up and take the party elsewhere.  We made the long drive back to her house.  Got there, and her brothers were out gaming and everyone else was asleep.  So we decided to pop in a cheesy kung fu flick.  Awesome.  Man With Secret Kung Fu or something like that.  Though he was kicking all kinds of ass, so his kung fu wasn't really a secret.  Good stuff.  Tiff kept falling asleep though.  So finally we decided to turn in for the night.  We tried sleeping on the couch.  That didn't work.  Though I did fall asleep, and was balled up and being the hot person I am, started sweating.  Not comfy.  Tiff wasn't comfortable, either.  She was on the edge of the couch.  After a while of that, she remembered they had a camper out back.  Hmmmm!  She grabbed a blanket and we went outside into the wilderness, er, her backyard where it was parked.  We went in, found a bed, laid down, and did what we do best..........

Sunday morning came.  We stayed in the camper for hours after we woke up.  Just lying there, in each other's arms.  Doing some more of what we do best......Eventually at some point we went back up to the house.  Met her dad, who seems cool, and from what I hear likes me because I'm white.  Met her sister and her kids that day too.  They seem like a nice bunch.  They all think I'm too quiet, though.  Aw well.  After hanging out at the house for the rest of the day, we eventually found ourselves back at the camper.......yeah.  Won't go into detail about that.  But it was the most perfect ending to the most perfect weekend, ever.  While there, I said something I was so scared to say....I told her that I loved her.  And thankfully, she feels the same way.

Anyways, sometime around 11-ish, I finally left her house.  As much as I didn't want to, it was time for me to take my leave.  I made my way home, but before arriving, almost killed myself.  Listening to Dragonforce while driving down a dark and curvey road = not wise.  I'll just say I took a curve doing close to 70 mph, lost control and almost spun completely around, and ended up in the other lane.  Thank the gods no one was coming from the other direction or I would have been hit.  And also, thank goodness I am a good driver, or I could have completely lost it and ended up in a ditch.  Needless to say I did the speed limit the rest of the way home.....

I tell you, there is no better feeling in this world that the feeling of love.  I've been so happy these past few weeks being with her, and even more happy now that we are officially together.  For the first time, I truly feel whole.  Tiffany completes me.  No one has ever been able to make me this happy before.  I love her, with all my heart and soul, and want to be with her forever.  I know she's reading this.......and I hope she knows just how much she means to me.  You are my everything Tiffany.  Words can't describe how much I love you.

So this ends Episode V.  A tale of the greatest weekend ever.  Sorry for it being so late, but yeah.  I'll explain why my time is so crunched and whatnot in my next entry, Episode VI.  The next one will just be about how my week after the greatest weekend ever was, and what I have to look foward to.  So.......until next time.


~Nipu

So it's been a while since I've updated.  A few weeks, actually.  I've had a lot happen in that time.  So much in fact that I don't think I could sit down and post it all in one update.  So rather than try, I'm going to break things up.  As per the advice of my beautiful Tiffany ( saving that for a future entry, probably tomorrow ), my entries will be a trilogy so to speak.  Starting with Episode IV ( just because I'm a dork like that ).  This one is a sad one, titled " See You Space Cowboy....."

Saturday, November 3rd started off just like any other Saturday.  Woke up kinda late, don't remember how late thought.  Sometime before 11.  But yeah, woke up, started talking to Tiffany as usual right away.  I was fixing to go upstairs when my dad met me at my door.......my Grandfather had passed away.

I came back into my room, and sat down at my desk.  I don't think it had really sank in yet.  I wasn't crying, I don't think I even felt sad at that point.  I think I was just in shock.  He seemed to had been doing better, last time I saw him.  And now.....now he was gone.  Just like that.  I told Tiffany that our plans for Sunday were cancelled, and she did her best to make me feel better.

Mother came home a little while later, and I met her upstairs with a hug.  She asked me if I would go to the nursing home that night and clean out his room, and I of course said I would.  So a few hours later, my brother and I took my mom's SUV and headed out there.  It felt strange going in there, and him not being there.  And seeing the bed that he was lying in earlier that day, and knowing that's the last place I saw him.  As hard as it was, I fought back my tears.  I didn't want to cry in front of my brother.  I needed to stay strong for now.  There would be time for that later.  So we started cleaning.  Neither one of us said much the entire time.  A few of the nurses poked their heads in to say they were sorry.  He was a well loved man out there.  Always so funny, quick with a joke or a smartass comment.  I guess that's where I get my smartassness from.  Always being frisky with the nurses out there.  They all enjoyed his company.

After about an hour, we had everything cleaned up and loaded in the SUV.  I told Hunter to go sit and wait for me while I did a quick scan to make sure we had everything.  I stood in the empty room for a moment, looking at the bed he once laid in.  I couldn't fight it any longer, and finally broke down crying.  After a few minutes, I took a bottle of whiskey I had found in his room, held it up in the air, and made a toast to him.  A great man.  I then threw the bottle back and took a big shot of that stuff.  I put the bottle back in my pocket, and walked out the door, not looking back.

Sunday night was the visitation.  I had stayed up the night before until 2 am working on his memorial DVD.  Took me a while to get it done.  First try in a program that wouldn't burn to DVD, second try I found a mistake in the final version and tried to go back to edit it, but lost the whole project.  Third time was the charm.  The DVD came out beautiful.  A wonderful tribute to him.  It was played that night on a big tv at the visitation.  It was nice.  A lot of people came out to pay their respects.  Saw a lot of people I hadn't seen in a long time.  Hunter was macking on one of our cousins....>.>  But it was good.  Lots of laughing and good memories shared between family and friends.  Everyone loved my tribute I did.  I felt that I had honored my Grandfather well.

Monday morning we all woke early.  Had to be at the funeral home at like 9.  My brother and I were pallbearers, along with several cousins.  Anyways, we got dressed up in our sexy suits.  Took some awesome pictures outside.  But yeah, we eventually left and made our way over there.  When we got there, the hearse was pulled up.  But not your standard hearse.  My Grandfather had always seen this one specific hearse sitting in front of the funeral home.  He loved it.  It was an red, old 1950's Chevrolet hearse/ambulance.  A classic car.  He had always said he wanted to take his last ride in that, but the car wasn't operational.  Until today.  They actually fixed the hearse in 2 days, just for him.  It was fully running.  He would get his wish afterall.

The funeral service was great.  It was held by the preacher that lives across the street from us.  A good friend of the family.  It was full of memories and good times we all had of my Grandfather.  After that was done, I and the other pallbearers loaded the beautiful casket of his into the old hearse.  The casket was black, with silver trim, handles and engravings.  Very beautiful.  We all then piled in our cars, and made the final ride, to the cemetary.  More words were said, and we the pallbearers placed flowers on the casket, and hugged the family.  And that was it.  They lowered him down into the ground to his final resting place.  I know he's at peace now, and it makes me happy because his last few weeks he suffered so badly.

After the funeral was over, everybody came over to the house.  Place was packed.  We all ate the TON of food people had brought for us.  I had several requests for the tribute DVD, so I got to cranking those out.  Later on that night once everyone had left, some of my Grandfather's things were split up amongst the grandkids.  I got his safe, a watch, and several of his knives.  Items I will cherish forever.

I will always love and remember that great man.  He was the only Grandfather I ever knew.  I actually see a lot of him in my own self today.  So with that being said, I bid you farewell Grandfather.  I'm glad you're finally at peace.  I love you, and always will.





So this concludes Episode IV.  Tomorrow, I will continue on with what's been happening here lately with Episode V:  Searching No More.  So tune in tomorrow.  Until then.....


~Brandon Lee

Nothing really much to post.  Just wanted to wish everyone a happy halloween.  I'm not doing anything tonight.  It sucks when it falls in the middle of the week, everyone can't do anything because they have to work in the morning.

Did a radio interview this morning with Paul, representing the Clarksville Ghost Hunters.  That was a lot of fun.  Live radio, heard all over Clarksville, and all the way to Hopkinsville in Kentucky.  I can't wait to do it again next year.

So here I sit, watching Ghost Hunters, and talking to Tiffany.  Listening to her talk about her sexy costume she has.  But anything she wears is sexy.  :)  Wish I could be with her to see it.  But I spent the past two days with her.  Monday she came up here, and yesterday afternoon I went to see her.  Had a great time, as usual.

Well I guess I'm going to go find something to eat.  Like I said, nothing much to post tonight.  Just thought I'd throw something down.  Later

~Brandon 

Alright, so here I sit, with some things on my mind.  After a phone conversation with my ex Angela, a lot of things were brought before my eyes.  Also, with the help of my dear friend, Tiffany, I've come to realize a lot about my relationships, both past and future.  I'm going to try to organize my thoughts best I can.  I apologize in advance if this comes out a jumbled mess.

As I stated in my opening, I spoke with Angela today on the phone.  She called me sometime this afternoon, crying as usual.  The last time we spoke on the phone she called me crying.  See, thing is, now 8 months later after we've broken up, she realizes what she did.  She fucked up, and she knows it.  And both times she's called me, she's made that clear.  Today, she blamed the guy she left me for, for ruining her engagement, for ruining her life basically.  But it's not his fault, it's her's.  She made the decision to leave me.  She's the kind of person that never looked to the future.  She looked at the present and always made choices based on what would be good for her at that time, never thinking about the consequences later on down the road.  And now she's paying for it.  She basically is begging for me to come back.  But I won't do it.  I've realized now that I was never truly happy with her.  She always felt the need to try to control my finances.  I would buy something for myself....a game, a new piece of ghost hunting equipment, just anything.  And I would get yelled at.  I couldn't enjoy the pleasures I like such as comics and figure collection, because I always had to hear it from her.  Now, with her gone, I've been free to spend my money as I see fit, without having to hear her complain.

The reason our relationship failed is because she was basically a rebound.  We started talking maybe a month after I broke up with Tiffany.  Started dating just a few weeks after we started talking.  Jumped into a physical relationship not long after that.  I did all the wrong things.  I didn't take the time to get to know her well enough.  We weren't friends before we were lovers.  It was during the first year of our relationship were we actually started learning about each other.  Learning who the other really was.  Which I see now was not the right thing to do.  All of the learning should have been done prior to us dating.  Things only started going downhill once we were engaged.  I felt obligated to propose to her, I guess.  Christmas was coming up, and she kept on prying, trying to find out what I was getting her, all the while dropping hints that she wanted to get engaged.  I guess that's why I did it.  Basically to shut her up.  That was my next mistake.

Looking back, I made a lot of mistakes with her.  It all only led to our downfall.  Which now I see isn't a bad thing.  I'm happier without her.  Well, now I am.  For a while I was tore up about it.  Drinking every night.  I was losing my friends, and more importantly, myself.  I finally came out of the slump and reconnected with my best friends, and with their help, I realized she wasn't worth my time anyway.  I'm a good person, no, a GREAT person.  And I deserve to be with another great person.  Someone who appreciates the things I do for them.  Someone who will thank me when I go out of my way to make them happy.  Someone who can love and accept me for me, and not try to change who I am.

Which brings me to my next subject at hand.  Tiffany.  No, not the old one.  The new one.  The awesome one.  She's the main reason I'm so happy right now.  She's a wonderful person, and I'm very thankful to have met her.  I'm glad I've taken the time to actually get to know her.  That way, if a relationship does ever come out of this, it will hopefully be a long and meaningful one.  She's someone I can see myself spending a long time with.  And actually being happy with, unlike all the others.

Well I'm done.  I've gone on long enough.  Metalocalypse is on.  Later.

~Brandon

 .....No, Wolverine!  Snikty, snikty, snoine!

Ah, what to write about tonight?  How about my new cell phone?  Or the absolutely amazing day I had yesterday?  Or the pretty bland day I had today?  I don't know....how about it all!?  Right after I go find something to eat.....

I'm back.  Miss me?  Of course not.  There was no time difference in between the last line of text and this one.   So yeah, boredom and hunger are strange bed fellows.  I go upstairs to find some grub.  Don't know why I'm hungry.  Had a pretty big dinner.  Anyways, I start diggin' around and a strange urge comes over me.  I want oatmeal.  Why?  Hell if I know, I just know I want some oatmeal.  So I hit up the " winter supply " cabinet.  Where we store all the oatmeal and hot chocolate.  I find several packs of oatmeal, of various flavors.  Some Raisins and Spice, Cinnamon and Spice, and Apples and Cinnamon.  >.>     I grab a mixing bowl from the cabinet, also known as one of my cereal bowls.  I fill it with water and toss it in the microwave.  3 minutes later I add my 5 packets of oatmeal.  Yes, 5.  Five.  Cinco.  Go, for you otaku's out there.  So what?  I wanted some mah fuckin' oatmeal.  It's quite tasty, too.  Though....I don't know if I can eat it all now......getting.....full.......

So yeah.  About all that stuff up there at the tippy top.  I'ma gonna explain it all.  But instead of starting with Tuesday, we're going to Tarantino it.  Start with today and go backwards.  Because that's how that fucktard directs movies...or something.

Anyways!  Today?  Rather bland.  As usual, talked to Tiff on the old Yahoo.  Went to the bank for mother, went to the AT&T store for them to rip me off more by adding an additional $40 to my monthly bill for my new phone.  Went to the BK Lounge.  Picked up some food for me and J.  Went to the comic store.  Talked Transformers with J and a customer.  Because we're dorks like that.  Left there. Came home.  Talked with Tiffany some more.  Had dinner.  Watched Ghost Hunters.  Almost fell asleep.  Got online.  Started my journal.  Made my oatmeal.  Started typing more.  Talking to Awesome Person #1 some more......and yeah......so let's go back another day now.  To quite possibly one of the best days I've had in a long time......* staaaaaaaar...........wiiiiiiiiiiiipe *

So yesterday.....awesome day.  Amazing day.  Splendid day.  I spent the day with Tiffany.  Mmmhmm.  She came up to visit on her day off.  She's so great.  We went out for chinese for lunch.  Then went to my joint to be lazy the rest of the day.  Started watching Monty Python and the Holy Grail.  Classic movie.  Chosen by her.  Just another cool point on her cool report card.  Halfway through I got the call.  My Blackberry had arrived.  So we jumped in A Decpeticon Named Slickback and raced to Wally World.  Got my phone.  Got home.  Finished the Holy Grail.  Then we watched some Bebop.  Awesome show.  I gave the beautiful woman one of my special foot massages because the poor thing stands all day at work. Then she wanted to play with my Wii?  Doesn't everybody?  So we made her a Mii and played bowling for a while.  Then I said she had to watch the original 1986 Transformers movie.  So I pop it in, and she decides to reward me for my foot massage with some snuggling.  So I lay down with her and oh my god......I had forgotten what it felt like to be that close to someone.  She's a wonderful snuggler.  It felt really good to hold someone in my arms again, someone I care about.  It almost felt....I don't know.  Right.  * sigh *  I'm doing it again.  I'm falling, if not have already fallen for someone......  Dammit why do I do this?  But can you blame me?  She's amazing.  There's just no words I can use to explain how great a person she is......but alas I must respect her wishes to remain single.  I'll just keep doing what I can for her, and when/if she's ready, she'll let me know.  Hopefully.  I know she's reading this.  Tiffany, I hope you know just how much I care for you, and how much I like you.........

So yeah, I kinda left the silliness there for a bit.  So back to it!  My new phone.  A Blackberry Pearl.  Probably the most friggin' fancy thing I've ever owned.  I'm starting to get the hang of it...but man!  I just wanted a sexy phone!  I didn't know I'd have to pay more a month just to text and email from it.  Aw well.  It's still sexy.  So, so very sexy.....

Ok, this has gone on long enough.  I'm done.  Out.  Finished.  And fucking full of oatmeal.  Toodles!

~ One Bastard Full of Oatmeal

Sing us a song tonight.
Well, we're all in the mood for a melody,
And you've got us feelin' alright.

Yeah, I'm feelin' alright at the moment.  Not too much going on.  Jammin' to some Billy Joel, chatting with Tiff and updating this thing.

My Grandfather, well, don't really know what's going on.  One day he's bad again, the next he's doing alright.  Mother said that they finally found an antibiotic that's fighting his infection, and his white blood cell count is almost back to normal.  Sooo.....there's really no telling what's going to happen at this point.  I knew it was too soon to count him out just yet.

So my day today was rather bland.  It started off great, though.  With a wake up call from Tiffany.  I loved hearing her voice first thing in the morning.  Makes me feel like I have a reason to get up.  Anyways, after that I made some breakfast, talked to Tiff some more on Yahoo, took a shower, shaved, talked to Tiff some more on Yahoo...( anyone seeing a pattern developing here? ), played my damn solitaire game I found in my closet....which by the way pisses me off.  I've won like...twice.  It angers me so, yet I can't stop playing it.  I'm surprised I've put it down this long to type this out.  I'm sure I'll be playing it again before I go to bed.  But yeah, that's been pretty much my day.  Mother came home from the hospital for a bit to shower and eat before heading back.  I made an excellent dinner for her.  Mmmmm, it was great.  She hadn't had a good meal in a few days, so I did it for her.  And now here, I sit.  Boondocks is on....Billy is playing the piano.  And I'm still talking to Tiffany.  Speaking of which....

She has the day off tomorrow.  And guess who she wants to spend it with?  Mmmhmm, that's right.  Man she's great.  I just can't express enough how much I like her.  I love spending time with her.  I better get it while I can though.  I should be returning back to work real soon.....after that....there's no telling when we'll get to see each other.

Man, there's a shit load of awesome stuff coming out here soon.  Guitar Hero III next week.  Gotta get that.  For the Wii, too.  Fuck yes.  Resident Evil: The Umbrella Chronicles next month.  Gotta get that.  Speaking of getting things, I should be picking up my new phone Wednesday.  It's a Blackberry Pearl.  Hell yes.  Sexy as all hell.  A sexy guy needs a sexy phone.

Well I've spat out random shit long enough.  I'm out.

Oh, and we didn't start the fire.  It's was always burning since the world's been turning.

~B-Diddy

 Yeah, it's been a couple days since I last updated, but I've been busy.  Things aren't so good in my neck of the woods, and here's why.

Remember me talking a post or so back about my grandfather being ill?  Well it's worse than I had originally thought.  Thursday I got a call from my mother who was at the hospital with him.  She told me to get my brother out of school and come to the hospital to say our goodbyes to my grandfather.  We were told he wouldn't make it through the night.  So I flew like a bat out of hell from Wal-Mart, clear across town to Hunter's school and checked him out.  We then raced to the hospital.  I broke down in tears when I saw my grandfather.  He was always such a strong, proud man.  And to see him lying there, so weak, unable to speak and barely able to open his eyes to see me, just tore me up inside.  I stayed by his side for a while, holding his hand.  Finally my mother told us to go on home and prepare for other family members to be arriving from out of state.  I kissed my grandfather on his forehead, told him that I loved him, and left with my brother.  I honestly thought that would be the last time I would speak to him.

That night my Aunt and Uncle from Indiana arrived.  My Aunt ( mother's sister ) went to the hospital, and my Uncle and I stayed up most the night.  Everytime the phone rang, we feared the worst.  After a while my Uncle went to bed, and I stayed up for a bit, talking to Tiffany.  Who by the way has really helped me stay strong through this all.  She really is a wonderful person, and I thank her from the bottom of my heart for her trying to keep me cheeful.  It means a lot to me.  She means a lot to me.  But more on her later.

Friday morning I awoke to find my mother home.  She was taking a break from the hospital.  He had made it through the night.  A while later, my Uncle wanted to go to the hospital to see him.  Being he's from Indiana, he didn't know where it was, so I had to go back.  Something I really feared.  I had said my goodbyes already, I didn't want to have to do it again.  But Tiffany told me to be strong, and so I did.  I went back.  To my surprise, he actually looked a lot better.  I didn't break down this time.  We stayed for about an hour before leaving.  But eventhough he looked better, I knew in the back of my mind that again could very well be the last time I saw him.

Today there hasn't been any change.  He's still hanging in there.  Like I said, he was always a strong man, and he's fighting this.  I'm sure the power of the love of our family is helping.  My grandmother arrived today too from Indiana.  My grandparents are seperated, for anyone wondering.  They have been since my mother was a teenager.  It's nice seeing the family, I just wish it were under different circumstances.

So now onto a happier note.  Wednesday I spent the day with Amazing Person #1, also known as Tiffany.  She couldn't get her car looked at until later in the day so she couldn't come up to C-Ville.  Deterimined to see her, I decided to take the trek to where she lives.  We hung out at her house, watched the most metal show ever, Metalocalypse, then went and had her car looked at.  While it was being checked out, we had a nice lunch.  Then got her car back and went to Wal-Mart.  Yay for Wal-Mart.  Had fun there, then went back to her house, where I met her family and we chilled watching some Voltron, and a movie with Adam Sandler.  Wasn't a bad movie, just a bit slow at times.  I then made my way back home.  I really had a great time with her, and cherish every moment spent with her.  Sure, we're just friends and we've only known each other for about a month, but it feels like it's been longer.  We can relate to each other in so many ways, it's amazing.  I'm just getting a bit worried......I know how I fall for people easily.  It's a major flaw of mine.  I'm trying not to again, but it's hard.  Especially with someone like her.  She wishes to remain single for now, and I respect that.  But I still can't help but to think about things.....

Anyways!  I've already explained my Thursday and Friday.  Today I needed to get out of the house.  It's getting a bit cramped with all the family here.  So I took off and went down to Josh's comic shop.  Hung out there for a bit, shot the breeze with him and picked up some rockin' Transformers comics.  I love Transformers.  I really do.  After hanging out down there for a few hours, I came back home.  It's pretty quiet here.  People are napping...o.O  I think I'm the only one awake.....

So here I sit, typing this all out.  And I think I'm about done.  So until next time.

~Brandon